A bleak morning reflection on waking with crushing dread and catastrophic thoughts, and the slow, deliberate effort to confront them — recognizing that these fears are just unproven futures, products of a lifelong negativity bias. Choosing to challenge them, strip them of authority, and begin the day with cautious, deliberate resistance against the mind’s darker tendencies.
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My mind has been noisy lately. Questions without answers; why is my life the dissatisfying nothing it has become? It’s been one big steamroll.
As Petal sets out to bring comfort to her dying grandfather, a simple bouquet leads her through a series of profound encounters that quietly unravel her understanding of happiness, beauty, and reality itself. A gentle, thought-provoking story about the hidden forces behind our emotions and the surprising places truth can bloom.
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Time slips through your fingers, wasted on the endless cycle of acquiring, maintaining, and securing objects. Each of them, whether a piece of technology or a simple household object, requires time managing it. You buy, you use, you clean, you fix—always with the nagging fear of losing or breaking what you’ve worked to gain. This cycle consumes hours, making you forget that time, like everything else, is fleeting. The more you own, the more time you spend managing. And yet, none of it lasts. You are not in control, but rather caught in the web of your own desires, gradually realizing that the objects you cling to only rob you of the very thing you value most: time itself.
I recently bought an iPad Air, but the experience wasn’t as straightforward as I expected. Apple’s sales tactics, from subtle psychological tricks to aggressive upselling, revealed the powerful albeit silly nature of modern marketing. It’s a stark reminder of how easily we can be influenced, even by the most seemingly innocuous interactions.
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In this article I take you through my experience presenting a collaborated work on our newly discovered 0-day vulnerabilities in IoT firmware at DIMVA 2024 in Lausanne, Switzerland. Par for my usual narrative style, it contains connections to and small commentary on the infinite consciousness, encounters with objects of desire, and the difficulty in finding our path in life.
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In this article I elaborate a recent experience where I witnessed a dispute between an Uber Eats driver and waitress at a diner on St. Catherine street. I use it to explain the causal link between desire and anger, but further raise and respond to the question of “why does unfulfilled desire lead to anger?”
Fork in the Road of Desire-Fulfillment Read More »
As you read this article, I want you to reflect on all those moments where you or someone you know has acted out of control. You will be able to trace back each of these to some underlying expectation and desire. To deliver the message that the seed of discontent is desire, the Gita describes the “ladder of fall” that explains how through desire one “achieves” for themselves a state of anger and further, complete mental dissolution.
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After years of observing the suffering in myself and those around me, it has become abundantly clear that that which causes this unending calamity is a fundamental lack of spiritual perspective. When one mistakes the difference observed in the physical manifestation between “I” and “that” as an all-encompassing separation, the spiritual life is severed and thus begins suffering.
