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Memories, Revelations, and Dreams

/ dreams, journal, memories, year in review /

2024 was a year of significant personal and professional growth. Key achievements included successfully defending a PhD comprehensive exam, publishing research papers, and organizing a large-scale cybersecurity event. Musical pursuits flourished with the completion of original songs and the production of the @Hack 2025 theme song. Alongside these accomplishments, a deeper understanding of self was cultivated through practices such as meditation and studying Advaita Vedanta. Looking ahead to 2025, the focus will be on completing the PhD, further developing musical skills, and cultivating a life of greater mindfulness and intentional decision-making.

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Anger; Objects in Disguise

/ higher thought, layers of reality, memories, perceptions, thought /

As you read this article, I want you to reflect on all those moments where you or someone you know has acted out of control. You will be able to trace back each of these to some underlying expectation and desire. To deliver the message that the seed of discontent is desire, the Gita describes the “ladder of fall” that explains how through desire one “achieves” for themselves a state of anger and further, complete mental dissolution.

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Get Spiritual

/ higher thought, memories, perceptions, thought /

After years of observing the suffering in myself and those around me, it has become abundantly clear that that which causes this unending calamity is a fundamental lack of spiritual perspective. When one mistakes the difference observed in the physical manifestation between “I” and “that” as an all-encompassing separation, the spiritual life is severed and thus begins suffering.

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Don’t Leave the Iron On

/ death, dreams, higher thought, memories /

A few days ago I dreamt a nightmare involving my late mother. In this dream, my mother left her heated iron on our black table for two and a half weeks. I returned home one day to find the entire home burnt, walls blackened by consequence of the fire lit by the iron. I woke up around 3:30 AM with my thoughts soaked by the dream, like an all pervading fog. I inspected it from its various facets of interpretation, and extracted the abstracted lesson.

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Discomfort “Permits” Disengagement

/ higher thought, journal, memories, thought /

Eventually I fully arise and entered a warm bath. I asked myself, with purpose this time, “Why does this mechanism exist inside you? Why did you once need it? Why do find little enjoyment in fun? Why is it so difficult to untense your body and enjoy the full breadth of being?” Without forcing any thought processes or lines of reasoning, I let the thoughts come as they please… like waiting on the wind to arrive. It may have been 15 minutes to an hour later that a particular memory vividly presented itself from nothingness; an aged memory that I believe came with answers.

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